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[20 Apr 2007|03:18pm] |
i made a new journal.
i'm still keeping this one because i've had it since freshman year of high school and i still want to go back and read about how lame i was, lol.
add me.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) laydeelazarus
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[18 Apr 2007|02:01am] |
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i haven't felt like this in a while.
this is the first time where i'm not comparing someone to a past boyfriend. he's so different. and so wonderful. he always says the right things at the right time.
it amazes me how much he likes me. like, he tells all of his friends about me. and he mentions how happy he gets when he gets text messages from me. he loves hearing my voice. misses my face. i don't know. it's great.
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[19 Mar 2007|03:57pm] |
ugh. i love crushes.
... and being crushed on back. (is that the correct term? "crushed on?")
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[13 Mar 2007|02:12pm] |
congratulations, jackie.
you are the stupidest person alive.
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| I've been tagged by Jess, Kevin, and Mich. |
[08 Feb 2007|07:32pm] |
"Rules: Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird habits/things/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks."
1. I have a minor case of OCD. When I fill out surveys on myspace or livejournal, there has to be correct grammar and spelling. Maybe not capitlization, but, everything else is correct. I apply the same number of deodorant swipes under each arm. Like everyone else, I have a certain routine that I follow when I get ready in the morning, and if one thing is off, I will feel weird for the rest of the day.
2. I could live on coffee and gummy bears.
3. When I was younger, I thought the word "allergic" meant something that you were afriad of. So for a few years, I was "allergic" to sharks and vampires.
4. I used to brush my hair with a fork because I wanted to be just like Ariel from The Little Mermaid. I would do it in restaurants as well. I wanted to be a mermaid for the longest time after that movie. In the summer, I would throw random crap in my pool and pretend that they were my "gadgets and gizmos a plenty."
5. I think Simon Cowell is hot. I would totally mack it with him.
6. Sometimes I will play out songs. I will love a song so much that I'll listen to it on repeat again and again. And other times, I will like a song, but I'll only listen to part of it and have ADD and need to change the song every minute or so.
7. For now, my goal is for my name to be slightly well-known in LI theatre.
8. I get scared because I'm afraid I'm going to have a horrible after-life. I think about it often.
9. I don't like it when people don't like me, and I get paranoid easily. Like, if I IM someone and they don't answer back, I automatically think they're ignoring me because they think I'm annoying. Or if I sign on and someone signs off as SOON as I sign on, I think that they either blocked me, or signed off because they don't want to talk to me. I need to get over that.
10. It took me forever to write this survey.
Tags: http://bwayislife.livejournal.com/tag/, http://soup3161.livejournal.com/tag/
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[30 Jan 2007|03:16pm] |
yay for getting paid for the shit-load of shows i was doing.
yay for getting paid even MORE later on.
yay for rocky horror.
yay for dorothy in the wizard of oz.
yay for mich!
yay for boys... :)
oh... yay.
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| goodbye 2006, hello 2007. |
[02 Jan 2007|05:34am] |
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what a fucking year.
in the year 2006, i:
broke up with my boyfriend of eleven months for an absolutely gorgeous guy.
dated the absolutely gorgeous guy.
formed a strong bond with three of the most amazing and talented kids ever.
cheated on the absolutely gorgeous guy with an even BETTER looking guy.
smoked. a lot.
had the absolutely gorgeous guy cheat on me and leave me for one of my close friends.
dated the even better looking guy.
broke up with the even better looking guy.
lost one of the most important people in my life. (r.i.p. aunt maryanne.)
broke the strong bond with three of the most amazing and talented kids ever.
went to disney with the best people ever.
became best friends with the even better looking guy.
became involved in so many shows and formed so many new friendships.
2007 is going to suck. i don't know. i can just feel it.
the one thing i'm really looking forward to though is being snow white in snow white and the seven dwarves: the musical. i'll finally be playing something that i've never played before - the beautiful, sweet, innocent, romantic lead. i mean, i've played the romantic lead before, but, this is the fucking ULTIMATE romantic lead. and it's just one step closer to belle in beauty and the beast. word.
true fucking story.
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[29 Nov 2006|01:14am] |
it's official.
kevin kelly, dariel bernstein, brett campbell, and i are living in a castle with two bars, two lounges, a music room, our own dance club, a fountain room, an animal room, a space room, an aqua tank room, and many more other themed rooms. we also own a gravity tank and a mechanical bull.
too bad it's on the simms.
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[23 Oct 2006|03:37pm] |
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not only am i in high school musical, but now i'm in schoolhouse rock at creative ministries.
i love how for months i've been like, "i need to do a show. if i don't do a show soon, i'll go insane." and now, i'm in two shows that are one after the other.
i love it.
my new husband.
jacklyn lisi and patrick wilson forever and always.
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| speechless. |
[15 Oct 2006|11:02pm] |
billy sadd imed me.
we talked for 45 minutes.
could this night get any weirder?
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| GUH! |
[08 Oct 2006|06:59pm] |
honestly, i don't get it.
why am i not losing any weight?
i haven't been eating anything unhealthy.
i've cut down on my eating.
i've been pretty active.
why do i still look like shamu?
i just want to look perfect.
is that too much to ask?
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[02 Oct 2006|01:07am] |
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it's my own fault, but i'm sick of it.
i'm sick of this goddamn situation.
rinse?
i think so.
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| a theory and a survey. |
[31 Aug 2006|05:14pm] |
okay. in all honesty, justin timberlake's "sexy back" has already been brought back waaaayyyy too many times. and come to think of it, he didn't bring sexy back - i did.
( songsurvey )
i gots a callback for creative ministrie's little shop of horrors mainstage. wordd.
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| her brilliance will always amaze me. |
[30 Aug 2006|05:10am] |
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...i saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. from the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. one fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was ee gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was europe and africa and south america, and another fig was constantin and socrates and attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions and another fig was an olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs i couldn't quite make out.
i saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because i couldn't make up my mind which of the figs i would choose. i wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as i sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet. - sylvia plath, the bell jar, chapter seven
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| fuck it. |
[21 Jul 2006|04:38pm] |
fuck all of it.
i'm detaching myself from everyone. i'm not going to make the effort anymore. if you want to hang out with me, then you know where to reach me. i'm sick of investing too much of myself in practically every relationship i have.
"you're not happy, jackie." and that's the reason why i'm being left out over and over again? whatever. that's lame. the reason WHY i'm not happy is because i'm left out. someone once said they thought they knew how i felt. was that true? ha. sucks doesn't it?
whatever. i'm just a rambling, jealous mess. it'll pass.
i'm losing you and it's effortless...
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[03 Jul 2006|04:37am] |
yep. and once again, i'm the joey.
i fucking hate this joey/dawson relationship.
p.s. mich and i have come to the conclusion that vitamin waters are like mood rings. random, i know, but what else are we 19 year-old girls left to ponder over?
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[27 Jun 2006|02:35am] |
i hate it when people change. i mean, yes, it's bound to happen, but, it sucks when you feel like you know someone and you find out that you really don't. is this the way you've always been and you were just putting up a front those months i've known you? or are you just going through a "phase?" well let me tell you something, people - phases suck major balls.
p.s. another thing that sucks: wanting what you can't have.
i wish you were a stranger i could disengage...
...or can you?
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[18 Jun 2006|11:54am] |
cute boys are trouble. *smirks*
let's play the game "who does jackie resemble most?" choose a, b, c, or d.
a.
b.
c.
d.
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